2018年也要结束了。转眼就到了12月。今年发生了很多很多事情。我都来不及好好记下。大考很快就要到了。Spotify 2018 wrapped了。
认识了新朋友，有些旧朋友不熟络了也是家常便饭。
在这里离熟悉的地方太远。有时心里会觉得空虚，好像没有依靠。下载一些交友app, 打发时间，反正那些人也不会见面。和他们的对话也不需要负任何责任，不用天天义务似地回复他们。所以重复了下载和卸载那些app的戏码。
没有像第一个学期的干劲了，果然我还是好了伤疤忘了疼。也不再在意别人会不会讨厌我，继续地做出令人讨厌的行为-没有时间观念。做啥都要一直拖。因为自己觉得那些都不够重要! 在意程度不够高。我又一步一步朝向最糟的自己迈进。
我真的不能活得太舒适，太安逸会超级容易迷失了自我。希望下个学期的我能活得更像自己，不要再经不住奢侈品的诱惑。努力去克服每个弱点，内心清楚地明白自己想要的是啥! 加油加油加油! 不要再听不知所谓的情歌，听多一些自己motivation playlist 的吧。
最近玩《第五人格》，都一直做监管者, 突然不敢做求生者。突然间害怕起了尝试。
做监管者的时候，遇到一些特会溜的求生者，都会超生气。然后，下一局的求生者我都绝不会放过。好像被伤害过的，都会去伤害别人。（能够理解被bullied的都会成为bullies).
知道很不好，可是这真的好像就是人的本性。哎。
那天有听回了One republic的I lived, 颇有感触。
Hope when you take that jump， you don't fear the fall.
Hope when the water rises, you built a wall.
Hope when the crowd screams out, they're screaming your name.
Hope if everybody runs, you choose to stay.
Hope when the water rises, you built a wall.
Hope when the crowd screams out, they're screaming your name.
Hope if everybody runs, you choose to stay.
Hope that you fall in love and it hurts so bad (Yeah)
The only way you can know, you gave it all you had
And I hope that you don't suffer, but take the pain
Hope when the moment comes, you'll say
The only way you can know, you gave it all you had
And I hope that you don't suffer, but take the pain
Hope when the moment comes, you'll say
I, I did it all!
I owned every second that this world could give
I saw so many places, the things that I did
Yeah with every broken bone
I swear I lived!
I saw so many places, the things that I did
Yeah with every broken bone
I swear I lived!